Tuesday, May 28, 2013

I Can't Believe I'm Writing This.

I'm pregnant.

Seriously! Not kidding. 

I can't begin to describe how it felt to see that positive. All I know is the immense amounts of joy/panic/disbelief that have been coursing through me ever since makes me giddy & emotional to the point of tears at any given time. The first time I saw those two pink lines I thought for sure I'd lost my mind. But then it was there the next day & the next... Then the doctor confirmed it with a blood test.

Right now I'm almost 8.5 weeks along. June 7th I have an ultrasound to see the baby's heartbeat! I cannot wait!!!!! I've been dreaming about this for so long and seeing that little flicker is just going to make this real for us. We could not feel more blessed to have this little miracle on the way<3 January needs to get here FAST so we can hold this baby in our arms, finally!

I've never been more terrified in my life. I just think of all the things that could go wrong & it's enough to drive anyone crazy. I'm amazed how much I love this little sesame seed-sized life inside me already and I'm so panic-stricken by every cramp, every symptom... It's the happiest, scariest, most miraculously horrifying experience of my life. 

I'll give all the details another time but the pregnancy fatigue is in full-force today and I need a nap!

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